I know I would rarely post about my personal situations here, but I think this hurt too much it needs to be written.
Maybe it's nothing, and maybe I am merely overreacting as I always do.
Hah. Cita tinggi hingga ke syurga tapi ..... tatkala ujian mendatang dan pilihan perlu dibuat... Hm.
Indeed, Allah has purchased from the believers their lives and their properties [in exchange] for that they will have Paradise [9:111]
Let those (believers) who sell the life of this world for the Hereafter fight in the Cause of Allah, and whoso fights in the Cause of Allah, and is killed or gets victory, We shall bestow on him a great reward. [4:74]
And when you have decided, then rely upon Allah . Indeed, Allah loves those who rely [upon Him] [3:159]
Wallahi if a girl could make everyone happy,
But she can't.
So she chose instead to make her Lord happy.
and that is enough for her.
I am sorry for all the pain I caused,
for the past 6 years,
but know that it's hurting me, too.
I have made Him a promise;
so instead of getting heartbroken
instead of blaming me for your hurt -
please, make du'a for me.
I am so confused,
and at this point,
being like Maryam,
seems so appealing.
All she ever wanted ,